Feb.04 2010
Oil on canvas
65 x 81 cm
Lima, Peru

O.K.:
There are a lot of self-portraits appeared between 2005-2010. Red-haired girl is always like a mirror with life, thoughts & feelings of painter. Those continuing series of portraits shows changes in the artist’s life. It is like a time line with images.
*Red moments…* includes A lot of red color, probably the name is coming from this point. Red is a color of Passion, main feeling of her life.
Hair is red and has an unusual shape. It tells how many feelings, thoughts, colors are born and live in her mind now. Different ideas appeared in her mind and ask to go outside, to canvas, to life. Anyway same as every where in her works there is an unchanged personage – sky. Which is broken in many pieces here between this huge red masses. One piece of sky is set in the cage. Strong but fragile figure of red-haired girl gently holds this cage. Carefully and carelessly in same moment. Upper hand puts cage on risk and lower hand is ready to rescue it in any moment. I remember * Freedom in the cage* of 2005 with cage filled of lonely sky. Here in *Red moments…* sky is not that lonely but with two little birds inside of the cage. And lower hand is ready to take care of this little pair of birds. It seems she is intending to save them and their love at anytime…

Y.K. :
This portrait is a first work which beginning this series.
I was reviewing the works I’ve done during the recent period of my life and I came to point – I’m feeling pretty enough (even: ENOUGH) of Blue Color. Middle 2008 till Fall 2009 – period I am talking about. I was thinking why “Blue” is dominant. Well the point I guess is clear when I feel not good = I am feeling “Blue” and just transmit it on canvas. I check works of 2007 – and same thing is there. Period of my life when I am feeling “blue” – sad, bored, not ok, life is seemed stopped in strange hung condition, nothing happened or at least not what I wanted to happen, and yada yada yada…
Ok so for this moment I was thinking that I am pretty ready to change blue to whatever… And then I decided to set me a couple of portraits painted each one in special color gamma… So this one is supposed to be red, however I had doubts. Idea came to my mind to paint girl with huge hair bunch on her head ( inspiration for that came from many historical movies I watched…) I was going to search for photo references of that hair style, but it came to me itself… ( latinstock perú – facebook page)

I am sure I am not alone here with finding exactly necessary things when they are on my mind… Or seeing that people are working on same ideas exactly in that very moment. I usually explain it as: Ideas are floating in the air up there somewhere in the atmosphere and we have access to it. But just some of us are using that information.

I began to work on it, but still had hesitation about background. It didn’t take me too long to find out what I can do with it…

Also I was using here a 3D effect of painting hair. So this canvas CAN’T ever be rolled.

Work In Progress, first day.

Detail.

I was thinking about continue the series of crazy bottles. First I had it in gouache medium. But only crazy bottles one was made then in oil, very tiny one 2004 and 2005. Later work of 2005 was sold, and keeping somewhere Russia.
And so I decided to made that first one again as a beginning of series, that was already painted by me 4 times in different mediums.

Work of 2005

First tiny in oil, 2003

Crazy Bottles 01, 2009, Detail

Crazy Bottles 01, 2009, Detail

Crazy Bottles 01, 2009, Detail

Crazy Bottles 01, 2009, Detail

Crazy Bottles 01, 2009

Crazy Bottle 02 – I accidentally decided to make a series of this my old work “Crazy Bottle”. And so I have begun some canvases. This one is a second one from series (first is old one).

Here work in progress, first day.

Second day:

Detail one:

Detail two:

Work Complete:

Sky Full Of Clouds

One of my recent painting. I was writing about this one before. And here I want to publish complete work and details of this work.

In this one I was using some new techniques for sky and for her skin. And also this one is a continuation of the self-Portrait that I didn’t finished for a moment.

I began this painting in summer just after I finished my college. I have painted her, a bit of her face and most of her background. I wanted to make a free fresh background, painted with a knife, and show a colorful show in the arch. But then I stopped and have a time-out with this painting. In generally I made a mistake that time, ’cause I had a lot of unfinished works in different styles, I noticed, for me important to keep idea in the mind, that it inspires me. And if I have few ideas in the mind, for me it doesn’t work completely. ’cause I do not get fully satisfied with any of them. So reviewed this error I’m trying to not repeat it more, though accidentally something similar is happening now.

Anyway after beginning in summer I returned to Model in late Autumn and finished somewhere in December. But I am very sad I couldn’t keep her first face, so clean and light as I did it when I returned to continuing of this painting. So all was almost done and I was pretty happy to see as things turning on again to being such as I wanted to be. But I had an unexpected conversation with guy I had affair with. I tried to lost myself in painting sit and I just made the black dots of her eyes darker. I DID NOT change any shape, BUT her look changed from angel face to angry bitch. I don’t know her eyes was soo angry. And this moment my mom asked me what i did with her face, what happened? I said that I do nothing, just made them darker the dots, nothing more. Mom noticed that her mood changed to my mood, and after this moment she asked me Why do I do that for her, to one who doesn’t deserve it, and also she asked me when I am in any bad mood do not paint works, that contextually created to have another one.

I cleaned her eyes with diluent, i have only wed last layer of the dots i made, all others were dried. And was worked on her eyes next few days when I had better mood. I could change them a bit. But they anyway lost that child-light look. They became more adult and serious. Now when I look at her I see she is not sad, she smiling, though who knows what is under the mask.
Also I was using a figures of Botticelli. I used them ’cause they are very suited to this my painting, at least I think so.

View Painting

This “Model” appeared first as a repeating drawing in my sketch book. I was drawing her many many time. I just wanted to draw something, some simple drawing, but she all the time followed me. And I was drawing her. I like to draw a lot with simple pen. And She was draw exactly that way. I will make a post one day about my pen-drawings, where I will put some photos of them.
2004 I was studying, had some empty canvases and a Big Desire to develop my style. So I was painting those sketches that followed me. Nothing more…
But hidden idea appeared itself ?and replaced empty context of just simple sketches. And now you see work about artist’s model. Who is like a bird in the cage of his/painters bohemian life. She gazing to window like a hope she has. ?She is tired of being in frames, that is surrounding her.

Anyway now I think even under this easy written context I can see my thoughts of that time. I felt like I live in cage. And that I need changes in my life.
Her body changes colors in some parts, for me it says about she is like a chameleon looking for a suitable position. Well in my case I also was searching for it, for position, which will make me feel comfortable, for balance and?for harmony.

Life is the second example of a sketches that i was doing for my degree-work in the art school. But it was not approved. Teachers said that it look like cartoon or book graphic. And that they were wrong asking me to search something else, that the first sketch was soo great, and I just wasted time doing another ones. Anyway I am finding this one more interesting for me. Cause even that time I noticed that I prefer more to paint and draw surrealism, but not 2D. I don’t know why my mind do not think in 2D. I was trying many times doing abstraction, well it happened, but I always finding myself beginning to add a volume to shapes. And to be really honest I am finding impossibly difficult to keep myself thinking and see things not in 3D.

Anyway that time I was really disappointed because of words about this second sketch.
And I had to convey the pencil sketch from A4 to 105 & 135 cm, exactly the same, so I was using a grid method. Sketch was exactly the same as was work, the only difference was cat, cause I changed this character later to more suited one. The pencil sketch looked something like that:

I don’t know why I came to create work with such meaning. I just remember I was long time thinking about what could I do. That year when I was painting those works at the first time for history of my art school we were allowed to make works in Surrealism. And I remember I was making many sketches before accidentally I just began to draw and just watching where the pencil will bring me. And this B & W sketch has appeared that way.
My classmates I remember also were trying to create a surrealistic works, but anyway all of them made a realistic, something classical for degree work.

Today I am gonna tell a bit and show something about painting I am working on now.

Work in progress…

Face changes.

Today finall photo of unfinished work.

Secret : “This work will be very conected with selfportrait I m painting parallel”